Y Not I

Our walk with G-d is full of ups and downs. It has said that we come to a crossroads, a place to make a decision and if we chose the wrong path, it is once more around the mountain until we get back to that crossroads again. I think we all have these crossroads and we make some good choices where we continue up the mountain and have other choices that are more a struggle and we go around the mountain once again. This gives us times that we feel like we are doing well in our walk and other times that we feel like complete and total failures. In our walk with G-d we are called on to get rid of the old sinful nature (kill the old man) and it is through G-d that we accomplish that. He also heals us, so it is G-d who kills us and heals us at the same time.

This song speaks to these things and it is one that I often find myself rocking out to both in my down times (when I feel like a monster) and my up times (when I feel like a saint).

Wanting, watching, debating, on which way to run to,
Haunted, voices, craving, someone to run to

I haven�t lost myself in a long time,
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I just want to be part of something,
I just want to be real like you

Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
And times, I feel like a saint,
I�m on my knees, you�re my favorite disease,

Silent, warnings, tell me, that I�ve let things come undone,
Show me, teach me, the way to heaven, �cause no other way can

I haven�t lost myself in a long time,
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I just wanted to be part of something,
I just wanted be real like you

Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
And times, I feel like a saint,
I�m on my knees, you�re my favorite disease,

Closer, closer, closer to You,
I need to be closer, have closure, and get closer to You,
Every step I take�..

Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
At times, I feel like a saint,
I�m on my knees, you�re my favorite disease,
And I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me
I Love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me
I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me

Have a great weekend. B”H